For the past seasons, I’ve had similar prayers to God like favorable work schedule, provision for my travels and bills, strength and restoration of my health, family salvation, etc. I’ve been used into asking God the same things not knowing that he is already done, or if not, currently in process of answering these prayers that I’ve been asking for.
I’ve been really comfortable in asking those things and somehow underestimated the power of God to give me the great things that he has prepared for me.
All of my prayer points were the biggest mountains in my life. I vividly remember how I cried over my crazy work schedule, how I get shocked when few days after my pay day I don’t have any money in my wallet, how my body deteriorated from stress and sickness, how messed up my life was, etc. I knew deep in my heart, I was longing for a change. And God answered me. Now, I don’t have to worry about any of these concerns because I know God is holding my life.
Despite all these breakthroughs, I doubted his ability to answer the deepest desires of my heart. Maybe I don’t know it yet? Or maybe I was just denying it? Whatever the answer is, I realized there was so much fear crippled in my heart that most of the time I failed to hear God’s voice telling me which path should I take.
Fear became my biggest mountain.
THE MOUNTAIN MOVING FAITH
Last year, some of my friends started to encourage me to pray for direction. These people know me so well in a way that when I can’t understand how I feel, they honestly tell me what is it and why do I feel it. And so even when I don’t really understand what’s going on, I prayed for direction.
I realized, for the past years, I never asked God about his plans for me. Yes I tell him “Lord let your will be done in my life”, but never had the will to seek him about his great plans in my life.
People and opportunities came. I needed to be more vigilant and wise in saying yes or no. God navigated me through the circumstances that he allowed me to experience. It was the season when I learned to discern which is coming from him and which is not. I became wiser, but at the same time learned not to lean on my own understanding and trust God’s ways of leading me through the mountains.
It took months of battling and bargaining in prayers before I finally understood and accepted the direction that he wants me to take. You may wonder why did I battle with God in prayer, it’s because during that time he is taking me out of my comfort zone. I am being pruned to become the woman of faith that he desires me to be. It was a tough season. And yet, I developed a deep and intimate relationship with him. I pray more, worship more and seek him more. A great level of faith was established in me- the kind of faith that can move mountains.
More than blessings, God wants to give us the pleasure in his presence. I learned to face the mountains gently. I’m brave and confident- it’s not because of what I have, it’s because of who I have. I learned to be content, to patiently wait, to trust and to obey. This journey is not yet done. The best is yet to come!
“And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.”
Hebrews 11: 6
“Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.”